I feel God when I’m alone (part 2) Nailing perfectionism to the cross

There is a big difference between isolation and solitude.

Without the time to stop and doing a stocktake of our thoughts, sneaky lies have the habit of taking up residence in our thought lounge. These same lies dissipate when we come face to face with our Creator.

Time alone with Him will have you slowing down, being more aware of priorities, and instead of reaching for familiar (insert your own vice) you’ll reach more for Him.

Deep down we crave the stillness.

We go through cycles of turning off social media, inforcing boundaries on time-wasters, and the things that numb the deep feels all the while swinging from absolute to absolute.

Okay, no more shopping for the rest of the month.

A month without sweets… wine… coffee¬†

I’m deleting Instagram…

I’ll only watch Netflix on the weekend…

The real question is why do I, I mean we, turn to these things in the first place?

Self-enforced boundaries are an effort to deal with the symptoms, not the cause.

There are things in our life that we turn to for comfort. Good things. But somehow inherently we know there is something amiss with our relationship with things. We know more or less ‘things’ is not the answer. Just like children’s church, Jesus is always the answer.

More and more I am realising that I will spend the rest of my life learning to trust Him at a deeper level of surrender, and rest in the knowledge that I am enough just as I am. Less chasing, and fulfilling the plan more following and allowing the plan to unfold as I watch in awe of His timing, faithfulness and unfailing love.

Jesus, its always been you…

I am more at home in His presence than I have ever been and the wonderful byproduct is that I am more at home in myself than I have ever been too.

Those strict boundaries around those things that provide an escape for the soul are fast becoming obsolete as my heart rediscovers what I’m really longing for is found in Him.

I’ve been confessing Psalm 23 of late. ‘He restores my soul.’

And John 3:2 Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers.

This is also my prayer for you today.

Also, thank you for reading. Sharing words (windows into the unseen) is part of the creative process, to present is to finish the creative cycle. It’s also the reason I hold back at times… The fear of sharing something unfinished or imperfect keeps me holding back words that should flow. The draft posts and books in various stages of completion, bow to poerfectionism or rather they did. As my soul is restored I’m naming perfectionism and nailing it to the cross.


In love, Carly

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