Can I just start this by saying that my posts in the recent past and likely in the future seem, well, confusing. Most of this is because this is an extremely confusing period for me… I mean, I’m graduating. I’ve been looking forward to the day since… um… freshman year. But now that it’s actually almost here, I’m beyond freaked out.
Mix in the fact that I’ve been quite emotional lately and I’m basically a mess. I choked up during a speech at the GWWIB conference, I bawled when I watched this commercial, and then I related to about every line during the first episode of Felicity. (I randomly watched an episode of the show while straightening my hair… have you seen it?)
At one point in the episode, Felicity says, “It all just… it seems really important right now.”
This is exactly how I feel… even though I know in the grand scheme of things, the events going on right now will matter so little in the future. Right now, however, they seem like monumental decisions and experiences. It’s overwhelming. It’s scary. And it’s really, really, really confusing.
I remember feeling the exact same way before graduating from high school, and looking back, none of the things I worried about really mattered (but really, not at all). So I know it will be fine, eventually.
It just… it seems really important right now.
PS Watching Felicity is honestly pretty entertaining. It’s from 1998 and she calls her parents on pay phones… good stuff.