But, I have an announcement to make and it’s one that I have spent a really long time deliberating over. And it’s one that I’m struggling to really capture into words. (This would be the lemon part.)
I’m moving on from Sweet Lemon. The #LemonLove issue will be my last one.
I came up with the idea for a digital magazine featuring (and written by) twenty-somethings June of 2011. I knew that this was something that people would want to read because it was something that I would want to read.
Working on the magazine was absolutely the hardest thing I’ve ever done. The biggest group project I worked on at school only lasted a semester. This took group projects to an entirely new level. I wore a million hats between managing the teams, dealing with crisises, and working through an absolutely overflowing inbox. This was all while I was finishing up my final year at Georgetown and ultimately while I tried to balance my life while working in Manhattan.
I thought I could do it, but in reality I was stretched way too thin. Also, I found myself really not enjoying what I was doing. Maybe it was a combination of constantly feeling overwhelmed and doing tasks that really weren’t my personal strengths. Launching a new issue was always stressful, and always amazing.
Hearing from readers. Working on fun features. Watching readers and writers connecting online (and offline). Meeting new people. It was amazing. It is amazing.
Right now, however, it’s not the right thing for me to be doing. I am living my dreams (quite literally) in New York City. My job is incredible and I really enjoy blogging… plus my side projects always keep me more than busy.
As the magazine grew, I fell more and more out of love with it. Here I am advocating “living your dreams” and I was actually not doing everything I could to be living mine. By doing something that I didn’t completely love, I was taking away time from enjoying life and my other priorities.
If I’m going to be honest, I held off leaving the magazine for selfish reasons. The SLM team is fully capable of running the magazine without me. So that isn’t the issue. I was afraid of having to tell people that I wasn’t involved. I liked being able to say that I founded a digital magazine. Essentially, I was lying to myself to fulfill this desire to “have it all.”
So while I won’t be on the SLM staff, I will always be rooting for its success.
The past 18 months have been wonderful. The friends I’ve met and what I’ve learned about myself along the way are things I wouldn’t trade for the world.
I hope this makes sense and I hope you understand. It’s not something I’ve taken lightly and I admit that it’s something I’ve completely done for myselfˆ, but it was something I realized I truly needed to do.
This tree feels extra special this year. 🎄💫⛸️❤️🕯️ Jack is fully embracing the magic of Christmas (“kiss miss”) and his enthusiasm is downright contagious!
Not one of my best qualities, but I typically feel immense pressure trying to make things feel extra special and perfect and then I get disappointed when the reality doesn’t live up to my (unrealistic) expectations. I wish I could blame social media for this.... but I know the call is coming from inside the house.
This tree seems perfect to me, though, just the way it is. It was a true group effort getting it here. Another one of my not-so-great qualities is that I’m terrible at asking for help when I need it.... this year, I can’t ignore it though. I needed help, and a lot of it. Mike got every holiday storage box up from the basement (no small feat) and hoisted the into the house and got it up in the stand within minutes (then redid it twice to get the angle of the tree just so); my mom and I took multiple trips to the hardware store and drug store for the “right” colored lights (in case you’re wondering, “bright white” is warm yellow and “warm white” is actually bright white... make it make sense); my mom wrapped the tree in lights a second time when we learned the hard way that when the box says you can’t plug in more than five strands together they mean it; and Jack was there to help and hype us all up to say how “boo-full” the tree and lights are– and keeping us in line by scolding and reminding us that we aren’t allowed to touch the ornaments 🤭
I feel a little pang of sadness that we aren’t celebrating a first Christmas with a baby who was supposed to be here, while also struggling through a third trimester (just feeling physically tired and exhausted), while also cherishing our last Christmas as a family of three, while also getting excited knowing our baby will be here before we know it. Sure, it’s a lot of pressure to put on one single tree, yet here I am. ⭐️
Spent the weekend decking the halls 🎄 the garland is up, the tree is up, the wreaths are up! Fueled by three peppermint mochas, one bag of Milanos peppermint slices, one batch of chocolate chip cookies, and one loaf of zucchini bread… my mom and I got it done 🙏🏻
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